Divorced

I just found out today via a letter from the Court that reads:

"A General Judgement was entered in the register of the court in the above-noted case on March 2, 2009."

Legalese for "you and your husband are officially divorced."

Last night I had a very strange dream about Roberto. I turned on the TV, and there was some dreadful McLaughlin-like show, but with an audience (think Jerry Springer, but only White people). The topic is immigration, and Roberto comes out in this bizarre long leather jacket that kinda looks like it has wings. He parades around, and the crowd is booing. I'm cringing in front of the TV wondering why he is there and wanting him to get off the stage. I have no idea what it means.

I can't quite believe after all we've been through that it is really truly over, when it feels like it never truly was.

I waver between sadness, grief, anger, and being way past it all.